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other day, i played TTR with Amor to do few boss runs which was so much fun and when i was about to cfo, Eternal Sunshine randomly tped and we started talking and made me realize that she's one of friends i'd love to have! she's so nice and always say sweet things about my art, it make me so happy and she have a good taste on video games too!! she and i both have big legs on TTR and we joked around being all YESSSSSS HOT LEGS BEST MODEL ETC : DD IT WAS SO GREAT OMG we re-added each other on skype and talked about a lot of stuff like our fav games and i told her a lot about tayler hehehee ! having a new friend like her always boost my happiness which i really need nowadays! besides, i needed more friends to talk/play with and i wanted more friends to share things in common with so this all work out!

later that day, i pulled another super late nighter with tayler talking a bit of fe:a and incredible story ideas for our precious cats maj & spark WHICH WAS SO MUCH FUN OMGGGG and and ! we drew several really cool concepts for it too! i cant say much but they're so great! ahh : D

i'm still so obsessed with fe:a lol.. i've put more than... 75 hours into game alone. LOL.... although i'm slowly falling out of drawing fe:a stuff but there's still so much more i want to draw so i'll just wait for right mood to kick in then bam ! there's one i worked on which show Anna + many outfits for ref or something : DD and other ideas i had where i draw fe:a characters as cats/toons which would be so fucking cute to see!!!!! i also realized that Gaius and i have so much stuff in common I WISH HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND LOOL like he love getting so much candy (i got so much candy from last halloween omg), lovely orange hair, weird habit of nicknaming his friends just like me, and he even know sewing too :')

i've been getting better sleep and better mood even since after i redo room, it's so much spacey and more accessible to everything!! i love sleeping on bed in corner, it's so nostalgic and its easier to sleep this way, idk why!

as for job stuff, i still haven't heard from a guy who helped me on getting a job for a while so i'm getting nervous. i'll ask him tomorrow like.. you know on a business day! hopefully everything's alright! i really need to know when i'll work! i'm little excited about working, idk why?? especially because it's a 4-hour a day for 5 days per week! 4 hours is perfect for me but if it's 5 hours, i struggle a little and if it's 6, i'm gonna DIEEEEEE, you know? LOL

on warfame, i made a HUGE profit by selling slash damage mod called Buzz Kill; obtained by event ONLY so it's worth a lot and i sold mine way over average and got 250 platinum (which is more than $15 value) so i'm Happy like Anna~ mmm Mooooooney! money money. there's so much useful stuff to buy using platinum on warframe; plus i've seen this before, stuff like Buzz Kill ALWAYS eventually become obtainable again later on. haha SUCKERSSSS

also, as for melissa; i've been avoiding her since the ditch incident, i truly don't want to see her again, not even on my birthday. honestly, one of things i want for birthday is having melissa NOT show up at all. i'm little nervous about my birthday though, i haven't been aware of my bday coming up so close until end of april and it still haven't hit me, probably never will? i felt like i don't care about birthdays anymore ;_; ... and worst of all, i'm gonna be 25 which is like.. a major number? ;_; i don't feel 25 at all but i hate my age so much aaaaaaa i just hope i'll be able to have a better life when i get older; drive, get a job, go to college, get my own place, make actual rl friends, etc which i need to do more of!

plus, i don't know what i want besides a new android or ipod touch 5, idk yet but even with new thing, i don't know if i'll take pictures of myself because i haven't been feeling confident about how i look at all, especially because some of family won't fucking shut up about my hair and i've been thinking of getting a ponytail and it looked really cute on me actually! but same time, i'm scared to walk out of bathroom with it sigh and if i see melissa judging me with ponytail, i'm gonna fucking scream dfgjdfgjt melissa is like the last person i want to hear opinions on about my hair seriously i'm gonna need a lot of time and courage before i can pull it off ): i already learned how to put hair in a ponytail, it's really easy and fun to do!

anyways bye : DD