yesterday was a very long day for me, i went somewhere like 1 hour away with dad and melissa! we ate at golden corral :> i didn't eat anything before that so i ate a lot that time, i got a lot of variety like meat loaf, mac cheese, veggies, popcorn shrimp, ham, beef, etc!
we went to a mall and i found a rare-ish n64 game; Megaman 64 and it was my first time to see that : D!! so i brought it and i was satisfied with what i got! :3
the thing is though, after all that shopping, i felt so tired and wanted to go home, dad agreed but melissa still wanted to check one more store called Big Lots or something on way back home and i played Smash 3ds in car wailing for them to return but they took forever in there, i could tell. it was more than 30 minutes so i closed my 3ds and went in store to get them and speed the progress up e_e
anyways, when i got home, i played TTR a little and talked to my crush on skype and i end getting heartbroken because i learned more about her current relationship with someone else, i was aware that she was taken but i go for it anyway because we both have feelings for each other in a very long time and stuff but ... yeah. i shouldn't have pushed myself, i should have went for it IF she was single, it wouldn't be so complicated. but i learned few things though, don't bother falling in love with someone who's taken. you'll get yourself hurt no matter what. ;_;
i left a lot of important details out for reasons but know this, what she and i had was indeed very real, so i'm happy about that. we'll continue being best friends so i guess i'm not too upset!
i just don't know if i'll like someone or meet someone who actually like me even again but i won't give up this time, i haven't been in relationship for over five years and i was really happy that way, so i'll continue being happy as myself and if i end up liking someone, i will just let it happen and see!
i have a best friend helping me to get through this so i'm mostly okay now, i also got a very good night's sleep! :') i'm still little hurt which affect my mood to do few stuff like drawing though. i need little time ;_;